"Momma, who's gonna take care of me?"

Since having my first child five years ago, I had been a stay at home mom... until this past year. With a four year old, two year old, and a 6-month old at home for some reason, it seemed like a good idea for me to return to working (note that it seemed like a good idea to me, not so much to the Hubster.) While I really enjoyed the work, my heart broke each evening when Bubba-Lew would inevitably ask, "Momma, whose gonna take care of me in the mornin'?" (even though we only had one babysitter that came to the house each and every work day)

He still asks each evening, even though it's summer break, who will be taking care of him in the morning... I will, Buddy. I'm lovin' this time at home with the kiddi-os! L-O-V-E it! So why is the decision to quit working and return to the SAHM position so difficult? Oh, yeah, I remember, it's the money, it's the conversations, it's the feeling that I'm productive.... and yet, I'm torn.